I’m turning into someone I told myself I would never be. Fuck people. Fuck relationships. Fuck friendships. Fuck everything.
If you like me. Fucking tell me. I’m tired of the guessing.
I’m hanging out with others to get my mind off of you. But of course, everytime I get caught in the moment, and i end up kissing someone,.. you’re in the back of my fucking head.
I like you a lot. And I want to tell you. But you fucking confuse the shit out of me so I don’t even know if it would be worth it.
So I’m hangin with other guys. I’m kissing them.
When all I want to do is kiss you. But I can’t even fucking see you cuz you work all the damn fucking time. And I sure as hell don’t want to text you telling you that I like you, cuz I wont be able to tell how you really feel or see the look on your face.
I just fucking want you. And no one else. But yet..i still keep getting myself mixed up with the wrong people at the wrong time.

Fuck it. Shit happens. I’m not gonna be all weird about this. Moving on.

Just stared at a blank page for the longest time. Trying to write something…
I am a bit crazy in the head, but I dont know how to deal with certain things. Things I’m not used to. And when shit like this happens, I freak out, stumble on my words and make a complete fool out of myself making me feel psycho. Fuck.
I feel guilty as fuck and I didn’t even do anything wrong.
I said to much tho. Thats the problem.


The 7 Chakras.

“There is a crack in everything, that’s how the light gets in.”
Leonard Cohen 
Ardha Baddha Padma Prapadasana  - Half-Bound Lotus Tiptoe Pose (Preparation)